Day 4: Hello Last Round

Today is Thursday and I am beginning to descend into the "fog" state. Chemo went well on Monday. I almost fainted when I got home, but recovered. I had Erich drive me to fluids on Tuesday because I was still shaky, but the 2 liters of fluids I received helped a great deal. Yesterday I sat with my girlfriend at the hospital while her husband underwent surgery for the removal of a cancerous thyroid. What the hell? Why are so many people being affected by cancer? I thank God that my friend's husband will be cured, as will I. We are the lucky ones. I am forever grateful for my support system of friends and family. Never in my life have I experienced the love and kindness that I have known in the last few months. I am so excited to face surgery. I want the cancer out of my body AND I have dreamed of smaller breasts my whole life. I feel as if I'm getting stronger every day, but I'm worried about Erich. I feel like he is at a breaking point. I'm encouraging him to take a few days to himself at the end of December. I hope he will.